Spring is coming!

I didn't know people used the term "fag" as a "cool" thing to say to friends still... but I overheard it among a group of young guys (probably 13 or so) yesterday, on the train. They were kidding around, saying, "oh man, you're such a fag" in the same way that someone else might say, "oh you're such a dork." The only times recently that I've heard that term have been in a blatantly aggressive way, like when I've walked down the street with my gay friend and had someone yell it at us... but the fact that it still exists as a term that young people use in regular conversation, as a way to jokingly put down someone, BAFFLES me. I couldn't believe it.

ANYWAY.

In other news, I am in a dispute with Bally Fitness.

It is also gorgeous weather, and I am excited to go on a 5-6 mi run with Nikhil and Julie... Yay for training for the Broad Street Run!!! :)

I have so many f-ing evaluations to go through at work. ARGH. But I have to get going so I can get to Trader Joe's in time to get tofu before the crowd hits. AH!

Okeydokes... well tata just had to get that off my chest.


ciao ciao

xoxox
anna

stormy....

what's up with the weather? one day sunny and 66...then a big snowstorm! what the.

also,
From my new obsession, Sara Bareilles's song "Undertow":

"Silly me, look what I did again.
I found what I want is what I cannot have
I didn't mean to be so predictable,
But I blame it all on who made you irresistible

And it isn't something I need 'til you tell me I can't
Why wear my heart on my sleeve when it looks so good in your hand.

My heart breaks in a heart beat
And you storm me when you come and go
The taste of something so sweet should have
Warned me 'bout the undertow."

a great song. definitely speaks to me.....

blahhhhhh

frustration, confusion, up and down, roller coaster.
about to take off, like on that disney ride.
boom.
moments pass, and then i'm back to square one. or in a new square but feeling like i'm in the same place.
just a little more tired.
i'm tired.
i'm also at peace.
living in the moment.
whatever happens, happens.
dreaming of rolling fields and memories and haverford themed dances...
but remembering the flavors of my teriyaki tofu from earlier... and realizing that my time passed.
i gotta just live.
it's weird cause the confusion passes and i'm feeling soothed and at ease. but then something stirs, and i worry that time is slipping away, that i don't understand, that life is out of my control.
but then the worry subsides and is replaced with a feeling of resolution. things really do work out in their own way.
the horoscope was right.
a romance with a blue moon, a serial killer with rubber gloves in a park, awkward hugs good-bye....
and that was that.
but the mystery is just unfolding, as a new chapter opens in my book..
thank you Punxatawny (sp?) Phil.
your declaration of winter means more snowfall, more beauty, more boots... and also more layers of clothing, and with that, confusion.
but most of all, it means that i have the choice. to remain confused and feel stagnant, or to revel in the moment and feel at peace with the unknowable weather....and more than that, to KNOW that i'll be prepared for whatever happens, and embrace the moment fully.